Well, foo.

I know it's easier to job-hunt when you have a job already... but I think this job is going to run me down in several ways and I am dangling at one end of a less-than-strong rope.

I thought that, with the part-time aspect of this job, I'd be able to do some of the things I enjoy when I wasn't working.

Scratch that right off the books. I am often too tired/sore/worn to do much more than stare at a game, maybe do a miniscule fraction of knitting or cross-stitch, and sleep my ass off. Well... try to sleep, even. I get my sleep in blobs of 2-3 to 5 hours if I'm lucky. I sleep in like crazy on days off and lose most of the day on what feels like catch-up.

What hurts is I don't have the bandwidth for three things I enjoy: RPing on my MUs, dolling/pixel-art, and working on both my websites and the one I share with chaosbunny. I barely got the doll done for Intergalactic Star. I have two or three other things I should work on... but have no muse for.

RPing... *sigh* GarouMUSH I'm facing the problem that got me to drop Seirian and Brigid. I'm feeling behind, haven't had a good time to RP that I feel functional. I'll keep at that one, though. TIG... *headhang* All I'm doing now is sitting on characters. Noriko has barely had any play since I took her, Ivanova is languishing. I'm on the edge of quitting it entirely because I don't think it's fair to squat on the characters. I don't like it... but what can I do?

The rest... guh. I'm tired of being tired. I'm eating well (outside of the bout with dehydration that nearly did me in), work is usually more exercise than I'm used to getting, and I'm taking vitamins. It's just very depressing that I'm working that hard and not seeing more for it.

Going to try taking my resume by another place or two tomorrow. I want something better. $8/hr part time is not cutting it for what bills I have to worry about. At this rate, I'll be lucky if I have enough money to cover hotel share and food at Otakon. :/

Just venting, before it all builds up again.