AUGH!

No more. I am not a part of this anymore. I am not going to sit in the middle of two friends and try to keep a marriage from falling apart.

Drew will never read this. He's in too much denial to realize that he's throwing away the best thing in his life because he doesn't want to feel pain anymore. He doesn't want to try hard enough and take all the options. No, he just wants to be depressed and lazy and let everything fall apart. Fine. Fuck him. I'm tired of his passive aggresive emo ADHD bullshit. Mind, I don't have ANYTHING against ANYONE with ADHD. However, I DO have issues with people like Drew who REFUSE to TRY and get the help that might actually do them some good.

I am crying right now because I am watching the most beautiful thing I have seen in the last five years fall apart. It hurts. I considerd both Drew and Megan to be my best friends. I don't know who Drew is anymore and it kills me inside. He's more concerned with his own pain and cutting all his ties to start over.

I also am terribly sad that this is the only way Megan is going to find out what he thinks and is feeling. I can't keep it bottled up, though. It's ripping a hole in my soul and leaving me empty.

I can't give marital advice, I can't help keep a marriage together. I don't have any experience with this. All I can do is sit and hurt for the people I care/cared so much about.

I hate the word divorce.